Age: 19


Height: 5’5”


Current Weight: 148.8 lbs


Dream Weight: 120 or less

Favorite Diet Food: cucumbers


Favorite Binge Food: Potato chips

Favorite exercise: Crunches/situps

Does anyone know?: that I want to lose weight, yes. That I am going to put my self to the extreme, no.


What makes you slip up? Lose of judgement.


What makes you strong: hearing how good people think I look


When did it start: the weight loss May 2012, the desire to learn about ana Septmener 2012. The time im starting it, right now.


What do you see when you look in the mirror: fat, disgusting, ugly.

Is it for attention?: nope.


Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: fat


Are you depressed: sometimes


Ever tried to commit suicide: no


Ever cut yourself: no


Ever been to a psychologist: no


Lost weight: yep


Gained weight: yes


Do you drink: yes


Do you smoke: in cuba


Do you take drugs: yes


Does your weight affect your mood: sometimes


Do you weigh yourself: daily


Have you ever fasted: yes


Have you ever skipped a meal: yes


Have you ever thrown out food: yeah


Have you ever spit food out: no


Currently:


[]anorexic



[] ednos



[] bulimic



[] living off laxative/diet pills



[] hungry



[x] thirsty



[] drinking something



[] Under 100lbs



[] fasting/starving myself



People:



[]have asked if I’m anorexic/bulimic



[x] have called me fat



[x] have said I’m skinny



[x] have said I’m ugly



[x] have said I’m pretty



[x] spread rumors about me



[x] forced me to eat



[] say I eat too much



[x]wish I’d eat more



I wish:



[x] I was THIN



[x] I had a better body



[x] I didn’t have to eat



[x] I could control myself



[] I was under 100 lbs 



[x] I could avoid food



[x] I could hide what I am



[x] I wasn’t fat



[x] I was pretty



I love:



[x]feeling hungry



[] seeing a difference when fasting



[x]shaking



[x] feeling airy



[x] losing weight



[] being anorexic/bulimic



[] coffee



[] green tea



[] diet pills



[] being able to turn down food



[] feeling good about myself



Appearance:



[] I am shorter than 5’4



[x] I think I’m ugly



[] I have scars



[] I wish my hair was a different colour



[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color



[] I have a tattoo



[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance



[x] I have/had braces



[x] I wear glasses/contacts 



[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were safe, free of cost, and scar-free



[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger



[x] I have more than 2 piercings



[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears



[x] I have freckles



Family:



[] I’ve sworn at my parents



[] I’ve run away from home



[] I’ve been kicked out of the house



[x] My biological parents are together



[] I have a sibling less than one year old



[x] I want to have kids someday 



[] I’ve had children



[] I’ve lost a child/baby



[] I can’t have children



Relationships:



[] I’m single



[x] I’m in a relationship



[] I’m engaged



[] I’m married



[] I’ve gone on a blind date



[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper



[x] I miss someone right now



[x] I have a fear of abandonment



[x] I’ve cheated in a relationship



[] I’ve gotten divorced



[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back



[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t



[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did



[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship



[] I’ve been ‘the other woman’



Sexuality:



[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex



[] I’ve had a crush on a teacher 



[x] I am a cuddler



[x] I’ve kissed in the rain



[x] I’ve hugged a stranger



[x] I have kissed a stranger



Bad Times:



[x] I’ve consumed alcohol



[x] I regularly drink



[] I can’t swallow pills



[] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water



[] I have been diagnosed with depression



[x] I shut others out when I’m upset



[] I take anti-depressants 



[] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS



[] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it



[] I’ve hurt myself on purpose



[x] I’ve woken up crying



[x] I’ve fallen asleep crying



[x] I’ve lost weight



[x] I’ve gained weight



[x] My weight holds me back



[x] Weight consumes me



[] I’m at my thinnest



[] I’m at my biggest



[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off



[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back



[x] My weight affects my mood



[x] I weigh myself daily 



[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me



[] I hate compliments



[x] I want to tell people to “stop lying” when they compliment me



[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size



[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry



[x] I get depressed after I eat



[x] I’ve skipped a meal



[x] I’ve thrown food away



[] I’ve spit food out



[x] I’ve fasted



[] I’ve taken diet pills



[] I’ve used laxatives


[] I’ve purged



[x] I exercise



[x] I exercise so I can eat



[x] I work out secretly



[] I work out daily



[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion



I’ve done:



[x] Weed



[x] Cigarettes



[x] Alcohol



[] Caffeine pills



[] Diet pills



[x] Pain killers (headaches)



[] Sleeping pills (insomnia)



[] Anti-depressants



[] Mood stabilizers



[] Anti-psychotics



[] Benzos



[] Ecstacy



[] LSD



[] Mushrooms



[] Speed



[] Cocaine



Other 
Habits:



[x] I keep my eating habits a secret



[x] I look at thinspo



[x] I count calories



[] I’ve had negative intake day



[x] I avoid food



[x] I hate food



[x] I love food



[x] I want to be this way



[] I don’t want to be like this



[x] I wish I could have more control



[x] losing weight is my top priority



[] I am in treatment



[x] I’m doing this for me



[x] I’m doing this for someone



[x] I’m doing this to prove myself

skinnypoppymoon:

sosososo happy! Just weighed in at 125lbs! That means since I last weighed myself I’ve lost 6lbs! Ahhhhh!! 

thelovely-collar-bones:

This morning I weighed 6 lbs lighter than yesterday! I’m so confused! Not that I’m complaining of course, but obviously I didn’t lose 6 lbs in one day. 

omg i have been horrible i have been eating way to much. i feel like i need to cut my stomach open and drain it out.  Starting tomorrow i am going to start restricting my diet again.. less then 1000 calories a day and then burn at least 200 calories. i hope this works.

inordertobeperfect:

Put down that burger. Throw those chips away. Soft drink? Forget it. Cake? Chocolate? You’ve got to be kidding me. You’re too fat to eat. You’re so disgusting nobody wants you. Get on the treadmill. What’s that? You’re dizzy? You’ll pass out? Does it look like I care, fatty?

prove-it-to-yourself:

Fucked up and ate MORE. Frickin frick. That is IT though. NOTHING tomorrow. I’ll do my best to go until Thursday, that’s the new goal. That’s not long at all. I just need to keep busy, and I have a lot I SHOULD be doing so that’s not a problem! I want this.

ive felt gross since friday ive been consuming way too many calories. starting tomorrow morning i am going to cut my calorie in take in half. i need it. ive lost twenty pounds.